Today I wake at 10 o'clock in the morning. There is a little improvement today. I hate sleeping in the bed too late. But every day I can not sleep well. So I am tired in the day time. But when it is night I can not sleep. Then it have become a serious problem. I have seen my doctor. And he said the sleepless would not kill me. He have never given me any drugs just some suggestions such as doing more sports. I believe I am sick. It is one kind disease make me can not sleep well. 

Today I have found one action figure which is exatly look like Jason Statham.Check it out here.

It is even wearing a tie and the underwear. I am amazed at these excelent work of the artists. The great job they have done. I have bought this just because I can not control. I am a great fun of this star. I have seen his every movie. The most amazing one is the Transporter. 

Today we had a discussion about the future. Mother suggested me to go back to the hometown with the family. But according my plan I have to stay here for another several months. I know it is not nice but I have to do this. The future is not as bright as I think. So I have to make plan for every possibilities for next year. In order to make everything is fine enough. I am staying here alone for another few months. 

They would go back home around April 20th. So at that time I have to say goodbye to them. The old house in the hometown is not nice. But there we do not need to the pay the rent every month. Money would be saved for the life. And for me I have to make sure everything would be OK so that I can also go back there with good status. These days I have to control the food eat every day to make myself look thin and fit enough. The hometown back there is one place I should win back the honor. So everything need to be perfect. I have to say goodbye to the family. In some of my thoughts,I also want to know if I can live alone all by myself. Because I know one day both my parents would leave me. Before that happen, I have to make sure I can live my life all by myself. I have to say goodbye to the family. I know I wish I can stay with you forever. But the truth can not make us stay forever. So I have to be strong to face the whole world alone. 

Goodbye my dear family. I hope you can enjoy the life in the hometown. When everything get fine, I would get back there.

I finally sell my titanfall toy with a higher price I have bought. I used to be confusing about it. I am not that kind person who collect all kinds of toys. However I have spent a lot of money on those things I do not even need, such as - the toys. Now it is one kind waste of money for me. But the titanfall should be the one I love the most.  Any way the titan is already on the way to his buyer. I should not feel sad for it. It is just one toy. Why would I worry about it ? It is just one toy. 

There are so many people who can not figure out how old are they. There are many people buy those toys. And I used to be one among them. Now seems I am awake now. Playing with the toys make us look like a boy never grown up. Now it is time to stop these things. Toy is just a toy, no matter how you call it. It is just one toy for the children over 13 years old. Now when you take it out on your hands or when you are taking photos of it. It is just like one navive man playing with the toys. Time to stop. 

I have sold it. And I am glad I am grown up now.

Today is rainy. Everything have the tast of the water. I think it is near the season of spring. This city have a wet spring. You can find the wall covered by a lot of water. Now at 10 o'clock in the night. I am listening to the disco music. I am not the bad person last night who turn the voice very loud. I would enjoy my music space in my house. By the way today my computer is fixed. The service of them is truly good. They make the computer run much faster than before. And I am glad I have a good service from them. 

The music in the rain sound great. Because the water in the air have made the music sound more beatiful. I like the music most of my part time I would make the music play. I think I would not disturb others. I would like this kind good music play in the room for all day long. 

Now I am going to take a bath and take good sleep today. I would never and ever eat the junk food like yesteday. See you tomorrow.

I decide to save more money every day for one purpose. It is all about the car. People never understand why male are so addicted with the auto things. I just like it. I think if I save the money for one whole year. I would get the car which I dream of it every day. That would cost me about 40000 dollars. That is a lot of money which would take most of the money in my bank account. So I need to store more and more money before I get get a license and get the car I want. If buying a cheap I would never want it. I would rather ride a bike every day. 

By the way my mother usually buy me some small gift like one accessory for the birthday. Though they are not very expensive. But I really appreciate that because I know she care me. I am always the closest to my mother. She know what I am thinking. I would like to share my thoughts with her because she understand me.  I know one day she would get old. Now I can only meet her once in one week because she is still working for a company. She work too much in her life. I am grateful for what she have done all these years for the whole family. She is my greatest mother. Though sometimes she talk a lot. But she is still the best of my family.   

Today should be the opening day of the new year. I sleep late last night because of some people play the music till 2 o'clock in the night. And they seems never care others' life. I hate them. But I realize sometime I also play the music in the md-night even thought it is not late. But I think I have also disturbed others. I feel sorry for them. I believe they also have hated me , too. I should be more careful. To be a good man, you must think of others.

Yesterday I watched several movies and eat a lot of junk food. I feel regret . But I can not control myself. I just can not stop putting the junk food in my mouth. So at the new year morning I need to make plan. 

First of all, I should do sports every day. And then I should sleep earlier in the night. I should never touch the cell phone in bed. I should take care of the neighbours. They should be angry if I play the music in the mid-night. So it need to stop. And there are still many things to be done. I should figure it out after several days. I need a fresh start for the new year opening. It would be more wonderful. Because I have that faith.

After the 5 days of the new year festival. I start to miss the old time of the new year festival .At that time we do not need to spend much money. But it is happy. I remember mother would cook a barbecue for me and my younger sister. We are all very happy with it. It is a kind of happiness of the family. But now while we are together every one is playing the cell phone. We take the cellphone even while we are taking a shower. I do not know when to start the cell phone have become the most important part in our daily life. It is horrible. 

I prefer the old time festival. At that time the people are simple. We do not need to consider too much things while we are having a festival. It maybe the most wonderful thing. But also the most precious thing we can never get again. It is the time. No matter how hard you have ever tried. Now you are an adult .So there is no turning back to the naive child.This is the life of a man. It is like one train never stop and never turning back. Enjoy every moment of your life.

My mother always worry about my single status. So she introduced many girls to know me. She think that would help me to find a good girlfiend. In fact I  am enjoying my single life style at this city,. There is no need to please other people. You can live the way you want. When you get up I would take a bicycle for 25 calories and then take some stretch every day. And there are a lot of things to do .I enjoy doing sports. But there is one thing important I need to improve. It is about sleeping time. I sleep too late every day. Usually I sleep at 1 o'clock. It is needed to improve. 

A healthy life is needed. Every day when I wake up in the morning I should enjoy the good sunshine and many things I love. There is hope beyond the future. So I would need to make a better day for the future.

This is one small world. I found one of my old classmate is a friend of the girls my mother introduced to me. It was wonderful. But I do not love that girl. She is nice. But I believe she is not my type. I can not spend my time with the girl I do not love. So I need to give up. 

I would prefer a better life in this small world. Better and better.