I am one lonely fighter. The parents can not give me a hand. I bought the house, and I am wishing to buy one car. And seems everything is making me have to work like one slave. But I get used to this. The weather is not as hot as before.And I can seee the blue sky again. But my time is not enough .I can feel the tick clock on each second. Human is one special thing.  While they are working hard ,they think their life is suffering like one slave. And while they are enjoying playing .They would feel they are wasting the time. I do not know what is the meaning of the life. working or relaxing. I can hardly find the balance between the work and the life. Someone want to enjoy the life, and some one want to get one higher position of the  life.But some are happy and some are not happy. One group of people working hard for their life, some people want to get the glory .And some people want to live one normal life and they enjoy the poor life and they can not afford everything they want.So they would get the normal cheaper ones. They never care. I wish I can be one of them. But I am not the one. The life make me have to work. I do not know when will this end. In fact I am one complex person. One side I want to enjoy the normal life. The other side I want to be one person who can make people envy me. And these are two totally different direction and this make me some time want to stop and some time want to get higher in my life.

These thoughts are just inside me.And I have never spoken it out never, But now I pilled my  surface and make it shown to you.