If there is one kind magic can erase the memory it would be nice. Because sometime the memory have the sweet side but sometimes it would destroy your whole life. And like the love. Sometime can make you live in suffering. And now it is not like before any more. She is trying to be a princess. And she is not beautiful. But I just can not forget. I have tried the best. But it is just so hard to make myself feel comfort any more. I start to be afraid of talk with her. And I am trying to make myself become as cold as I can. But I just can not quit. It is so hard.

So I would like one kind magic can erase the memory. All kinds of memory have different functions. After sleeping for three hours. I am still sitting here like one lost puppy.I do not know where to go. I do not know who to talk. And I just feel the pain in my eyes and the pain in my heart. I want to make myself straighten up by listening to the music .But it does not work. She suppose to talk with me. But today she still not online. Maybe she have some one love already. And she just can not find a chance to be with him. And I am just one tool while feeling lonely. It is really needed to do something to make myself know about the real life. Everything is clear to me. But I do not have any choices for this life any more. I have to make myself be tough. I have to wake up for all these things.