I think she would be my girlfriend. But I am not that kind magician can see through the heart. And after so many days I feel the slightly warm inside my heart. And seems someone have made it burn again. And it is like one wild fire inside me. I thought she should also have the same feeling. But sometime there is something deep inside me. It isn't the feeling of the happiness of the love. It is about the pain. In the past this black cloud is always over my head. I can feel it is going to rain. Because I am so afraid of loss for others. And now I am playing the music of Kill Bill . It is playing one sad music like the weather in the autumn. There is no sun over the head. And there would be a long rain season at this time of the year. I do not feel happy while get my new pair of shoes. But I start to think of the future. Maybe I can live with her some day. But it would be a long story. I have been away from the normal life for so long. I want to enjoy the couple days with the girls. I do not want to be single any more. It is all about the love and loneliness. I would like to enjoy the sunhine and the travel with the girl friend. I am right on the way. I am trying the best to make it become wonderful. 

Twisted nevous sometime make people feel mad. Because it is like one cat crawl on your heart. Pain but you even can not touch. I love this music. And then it is another day. I would like to get the love. Because I am enjoying the love.