I never want to end my life like this. Start losing the dreams for everything. But I blieve I would never give because my life should be filled with the glory. I can not let my life flow in the river I can not control. Im the captain of my life. I listen the music with the true power make me stand up among the greatest stress I ever met. I would never run away any more. Because I would live one kind new life I believe. I believe that one day I would make my dreams come true. I would buy myself the good camera that I dream to use. I would try my best to get what I am truly love. I would find one I love one day. I would live my life in one new way. But now what I have to do is working as hard as before. 

I have been running away for everything in my dream. I have been sleeping for so long.I can not make this become my turning point of my life. I am starting lose myself in this grand circle. I am totally wasted already.Please give me some chances to grab everything back because I am the one who get hurt. I am one person who can not tear the love. I am the one who can not make up my mind to do something. I just want to change. But how? I keep asking. I keep trying to find myself in such kind crazy life style. But truly tired. I can not stop because the dreams are just too far away from me. I have to make it come true. I have to.

I keep asying the words because there is one soul inside me struggling very hard. I am like one slave man. I want to carry on my hard working life. But always too hard for me. I never understand why this happening. But it is happening. I am stuggling for this.