I would never understand this kind situation. Keep talking. Keep wasting the time. Keep saying I am tired. But in fact look at what have you done in last several hours. You do not have the time for work but you still spend a lot of the time to watch the updates of the others. And it is just so weired of my life. But I never know it should be one end. I wake up at this day at this time. Listening to the classic music several years ago. Am I very old at this time ? I can feel the time crossing on my face. The time is changing me. I start to grow a little more mature than before. Maybe this is the time is teaching us something. Learn to accept the life style I own. And then try to change it a little every day. Each day we need to learn the truth of the love. And learn to treat the love as one kind small dis in your wonderful life. At least you own the friends. And at least you own your family. And every day is one new start for the life. Enjoy the wonderful life and enjoy your way of living. 

One day your dream would come true. One day you would find one you love who love you. It is all about the life . Life is always wonderful. We just fell in one trap and one day you would sure get out of this situation any way. Love is just one part of your life. You have to make yourself understand the truth and then make yourself feel comfort for this kind life. It is just changing. Changing to the one I love.