People always talk about the religion. And from my life I usually live it without the honor and all these times I was just a little lost when facing some big problems. The jesus can say the god would save us. But for me I do not know who to rely on and that is so wired  and you feel you can only call yourself up and then you have to say I am trying to bring these vintage ideas inside your mind. But where is my religion. My parents are weaker and weaker than before. They usually do not have solution for the lives. And they have to think of me. But I am not the one who like to take the duties. While I was just so lost like one sheep. But the religion have gone. Like the god have abandoned his people. If there is real god? The Christians says yes, but where are they. Are they just watching us? I do not know because the god have been away from us so long maybe he have forgotten us already.

Pray for the life and pray for the god. I want to live some kinds of life without the stress. Can you make it come true. The house rent, the cost for the life, the cars, the honor for my family. I have to  find back all these dreams inside my mind. I have to bring them back for me.

Now drinking another cup of coffee to make me stay awake in the noon. I hate sleeping because it is one way waste of the life. Sleeping have cost us too much time indeed. With one wide eyes open looking at the corner of the house. I am trying to make myself look calm down and then enjoy the boy london clothing like one famous star.This is me one person who do not have religion.